Steadfast, Beloved

Week 7 2 Corinthians 9:8  And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. From a young age, I would have considered myself independent. I knew how to care for myself and my young brother. In class I taught myself and was the most excelled. This continued as I grew older. I saw myself as someone who was capable of doing whatever it was that I wanted. I always got what I wanted because there was no one in my life to tell me ‘no’. As I’ve grown, I have understood that sometimes no is it’s what’s best. But what I am currently learning is that only God can say no. I have a hard time accepting blessing from others especially when I know that I don’t deserve it. They say it is much easier to give than to receive and that is the truth! I would much rather give up my own to bless another. Lately I have been finding that it’s okay to let to tables turn. I still struggle with accepting God’s bless

Week 6 John 3:30 “He must increase, but I must decrease.” This week I had my wisdom teeth removed. As I sat in bed most days I was left to thinking about the past month I’ve had in Guatemala. I began to reason with God why I was born into a free country, and why I had the opportunities in which I posses. So many days can go by just living a comfortable life before I realize where I’m actually living. Antigua, as many know is a very beautiful, tourist town. But if you take a closer look, you begin to see the people. The eyes who go unnoticed by hard labor and fear. How many times I let them go by without giving Jesus an opportunity to speak to them. Many will ask for material items such as money or clothes, but we know that the everlasting is salvation. I could never continue to reach the people here if I don’t live a life fully surrendered. And the only effective way to destroy the flesh is to die by the cross. My hope is that I never take the people here and this opportunity

Week 5 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Galatians 5:25 How do we as humans, decide what path to follow in life? There is sewn into every individual heart a desire to worship God. Some are in tune with this deep calling and others go through out life never knowing. I want to walk according to what God has ordained for my life. Looking back in life, I can recall times when it seems like it wasn’t God’s plan for me to walk through certain areas of life. In fact, it was all apart of His plan for redemption. So how do we live a life in touch with the Spirit when things seem to be flipped upside down? I’m constantly reminded of His faithfulness. A year ago I never thought my life would look the way it does now. I did not know, but here I am. It is only by grace that I have today. Another aspect that is coming to life for me is obedience. Being close to God is not living by emotion, but by obeying. I have no idea what next year will even look like,

Week 4 Job 36:11 If they obey and serve him, they will spend the rest of their days in prosperity and their years in contentment. What comforting words that has been for me this week. With all the changes in life, it’s been hard to find myself doing something that makes me feel like I’m fulfilling my purpose. I could make life just a routine and have it all down. How boring life would be. And often times, I find myself in that pattern of life. Just going with the flow without expecting anything exciting to happen. But oh my goodness, how many times will I allow my heart to wander from thee. Feelings are a lie, and life with Jesus is not boring! All this time I continue to try to find ways to serve myself to find experiences that seem interesting. I am not the ultimate creator. All I have to do is serve Him and he will bring those stories into my life. His word says it! I know His word to be true, but I still don’t expect Him to make it come alive. Here, we go again my wande

Week 3 1 Peter 2:2-3 “as newborn babes, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow up to salvation” This week has been such a sweet time with the Lord. Last week during a nightly meeting, we were discussing what the Lord has been speaking to us. Someone mentioned the children of Israel when they were wandering through the wilderness. We all know how the Lord provided fresh mana for them each day. Eventually they only became grateful when the season was favorable. God has been faithful to show me something new every morning. My wandering heart sometimes grows ungrateful of this, just like the children of Israel. Each day Jesus has proven Himself more precious to me, but throughout the day I can lose of that. There’s a quote by C.S. Lewis that states “Relying on God has to begin all over again everyday as if nothing had yet been done.” That is what a lot of this week has looked like for me. I’m in a position where I can only rely on what God wants to speak to me e